Satu

Assalamualaikum.

Ini merupakan entri satu untuk kamu.
Saat terfikir, hati kamu akan terluka kerana ku sendiri. Air mata pasti bertakung, tak terbayang keperitan, kesakitan, keseksaan yang akan kamu rasakan andai aku menyuarakan satu perkara ini.

Last day, before kita memulakan perjalanan ke Redang. Tiba-tiba ibu bersuara kepada ku, berkenaan masa depan. Berkenaan sesuatu yang akan meremukkan hati kita berdua.

Ibu bagaikan merayu agar aku berfikir tentang masa depan ini. Rintihannya, ingin melihatku bersama insan yang dia sungguh berkenan untuk menjadi pendampingku.

Aku cuba memujuk, berikan aku masa. Ibu namun seperti tidak bersetuju. Mahu di segerakan, tahun ini juga katanya.

Aku buntu. Yang mampu dan terdaya aku katakan, berikan aku masa. Setahun lagi.

Maaf, hanya setahun yang mampu aku beli.

Dan ini juga dalam kepayahan.

Kamu...
Aku benar-benar memohon maaf.
Tak terniat dihati untuk membiarkan kamu berasa sakit.
Aku tahu, andai kamu boleh menerima berita ini.
Disebaliknya akan tetap terasa sakit tak terperi.
Ibarat diseksa ketika hidup.
Hati ibarat diramas.

Kerna aku pernah merasa sebegitu satu masa dahulu.
Dan sakit itu tidak pernah padam sehingga kini.

Aku buntu.
Maafkan aku.

Jobless

Here again, I am home.
Just like 1 years ago.
Becoming like I am the only child stay with the parents.

Haha.. Perasan anak tunggal.

Actually I am jobless right now.
Quit working in Penang, and here I am looking for job in Kedah.

Earlier I tough it is not so difficult to find job in Sungai Petani.
Buuutttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt, I am totally wrong.

Now already Feb end, I'm started looking for job seriously since Jan. Yet no any interview for all my application.

So I am thinking to widen my search of job to Kulim. Hopefully I manage to secure related job by April.

My account already go to -ve. huhuhuhuhu

Please pray for me for new job opportunity.

Thanks.

Magical

This is the word I can describe now.
After almost 1 year, I feel like suddenly loosing all my memories.
I couldn't even remember this blog name, what is the email access and the password.

Today.
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I don't know how, I manage to search back, track all the record.
And now I am writing this postage.
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Of course, first thing I looked up when I manage to open this blog is, read back on what am I posting on previous years.

As you can see, below post is from 2016.
And now, its already 2019.
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3 years.
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Like missing my life track for 3 years.
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Of course, all the sad posting previously.
Now already become only as memories and histories.
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TIME did heal me and make me better.
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In fact, my life stories also has turn 360 from what I thought it might be during 2016.
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So much to catch on.
See you again later Blog.

I miss you so much.